Rude Passion

Since a kid, I have passion to be the only queen who ruled Egypt . I wonder it is not easy to reach my passion. There will many sorrow and sacrifice for this achievement and I never realize if my love will destroy my entire dream. When I was eighteen years old my father sick. I become his co and ruled Egypt around four years. After he passed away, I should marry my younger brother as his last will. He said if I marry my younger brother, Ptolemmy XIII, I could still maintain the Egypt politic situation in good condition like that day. Therefore, without thinking twice I marry my younger brother rapidly to save my position as queen of Egypt. The fortune comes to me because Pompey the Great approve my will and give us his bless. In addition, my younger brother, who becomes my husband at the time only twelve years old. He is too young to rule Egypt. Because of that reason, I am alone can rule Egypt and become the only queen there.

However, the fortune not longer beside me. I don’t know if my husband planning a rebellion to against me. He conquers my rule and sends me to the Syria. At that time, I very hate him and the decision to send me to the Syria is good for me. For I want not to see his face again. Every night in my isolation days, I always think about my revenge. I always torture him in my mind and enjoy his suffering in my imagination. This is the only thing that can entertain me in my suffering days. I plant the hate beets in the deepest my heart and watering it with the passion of revenge everyday. It grows up and become bigger everyday. I believe the day for my revenge will come soon.

My feelings not wrong at all. One of my servant tell me if Julius Caesar lead a rebellion to conquer Pompey rule. Its mean if now Egypt not under Pompey rule again and I believe Ptolemmy will betray Pompey and going to Julius side to saving his life. This is the time to my revenge; I can capture Julius attention with my beautifulness. I ever met him once when I accompany my father in Rome and I know if he has passion to me. I’m sure he will help me for my revenge. One night I decide to back to Egypt and meet him. But before I ask him for help my revenge the door open and Ptolemmy come in. Like I guessing he betray Pompey and begging to Julius to move in his side. As symbol of his loyalty, he presented Pompey head. I quiet shock when I see what his presented. I know if he will betrayed Pompey but I never guess if he will sacrifice Pompey to saving his live. His disloyalty makes me feel disgust to him. Beside me, Julius starring at he and he said confidently, “My majesty this is a gift for your winning.” Julius still quiet and he keep staring at Ptolemmy. A huge smile spread at Ptolemmy face. He should be thinking if Julius will happy with his gift and will treat him well because he can defeat the biggest enemies of Julius. But I know if Julius hate betrayer and I know if his expression full of disgusting.

I smile rudely to Ptolemmy and use this situation for my revenge. I pointed Ptolemmy and cried loudly, “Will you believe him my majesty?” I stared at Julius eyes straightly, “After he betraying me he also do the same way to Pompey and now he betraying him!” I quiet for a while, then lower my voice for dramatic effect, “if you believe him maybe tomorrow you are his next victim.”

Julius stared at me and I know he thinking about my word hesitantly. I also can feel Ptolemmy gaze at me. He look very angry and his face turning into pale. He should be very worried right now. Just like my speculate, Julius shouting call his guard and order him to bring Ptolemmy into jail. I never forget Ptolemmy expressions when the guards bring him. He shouted abusive word and struggle to escape from guards but they drag him in rudely way. I really enjoy this event. I swear this day are one of the best day in my live. No longer afterwards, Julius purpose me and I approve his purposing because he promise to me that he will made me the queen of Egypt. I know, fortunate will never left me behind. I believe it.

After I bear Julius son, he have back to Rome, for fulfill his assignments. He leaves Mark Antony, his brother in law to protect me. Mark Antony is a handsome man; he is very kind and understandable. He is better than Julius I guess and I started fall in love to him. We make affair behind Julius. I never meet someone like him before. I really love him. I never love someone as much as I love him. That’s why when he ask me help to betraying Julius I cant refuse it. Love make me blind, I help him to put some poison into Julius beverage. After Julius die, I marry with Anthony and we life happily in Egypt. But this happiness can not longer. Augustus, Julius adopted son come to Egypt for revenge of his father die. He capture my husband and cut off his head. Not only my husband, he also catch my son and kill him too. What can I do? I just can look sadly when I see my husband and my son corpses hang up in the center of city.

I was been betraying Julius after he make my dream to be queen of Egypt come true and this is the price that I should pay for the betrayal. Augustus stole everything from me. After their die, I found if rule Egypt not pleasant anymore. I’m lonely now, so what the meaning of my life without them? I smile sadly and drink a glass of water, which places in front of me. I become sleepy suddenly and my eyes become heavy. I remember again about my passion for the last time. There are many sorrow and sacrifice, which I should pass to reach my dream. After I got it, I destroy all of it by myself. How foolish I am. My eyes become heavier, and I cant hold anymore. I think this is because the asp which I put in the water. It will not take long time then I will meet with all of my lovely person in my live soon and we will together again.